My laptop is experiencing problems and I so desperately need to write. I was in the middle of finishing something online when my computer decided to freeze on me, first the windows taskbar, which was easily solvable, then the taskbar again about five minutes later and nothing seemed to be working, not even Task Manager, which I tried to pull up using shortcuts but no cigar. The diagnostics told me that it was having memory problems after I force-restarted it like I was smothering someone with a pillow and it just sits there looping at the HP loading screen when everything else fails and it can't load and it doesn't know what to do. I'd be a little more pissed if I didn't feel so tired.
I was in the middle of finishing an intro to a large project, which is exciting, since I'm so revved up on words and that in itself holds so much promise that things might actually go well, but then my laptop crashed, essentially, and I'm stuck here with this, not that I mean to complain b/c I couldn't just be sitting here with no resources and just feeling tired and frustrated, but instead I just feel tired and I have this, so this is good all things considered.
I tried finishing my thing on my phone, where I have access to the location, I guess, but it's just not the same. The typing was too slow, the screen too small, the paragraphs too thin and compressed. I've written stuff like that on my phone in the past, but it's just not the same now, now that I was on a roll and things were finally reaching some conclusion. But no. It just wasn't meant to be tonight.
I feel so tired today and I don't really know why it's happened. It's not like that watery exhaustion I feel when my blood sugar is high, but like the cozy tired like I've been hiking all day in snow and I'm falling asleep with a warm hat on my head. I slept in (technically took a nap while I was still in bed, but whatever) until 1 today, just because I was feeling tired and J—— gave me the day off for the CMS tour tomorrow. I'm so glad I got the day off today; ten I could take it easy, take care of myself, sleep in, take care of some things I've needed to do for a while now, and write, more importantly.
I need to go to bed. I need to go to sleep. It's an early morning tomorrow and I think I've run out of steam. I think I've said all I need to say tonight. Things went well. :)
